HAPPY SWEET 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!

Ytd 5/15/09 ish my cousin chiachun bdae.. coincidentally ly lewis hb & kelvin dey all r holding a bbq at cp.. den dey ask mi 2 join in.. dey oso invited my other 2 cousins 2 join oso.. lol.. havin quite fun over dere.. ly n hb went over at 4.. bt we onli manage 2 start de fire at 9 smth.. no matter hw hard we try oso cant start sia.. no experience.. hb de guy even use up 1 box of starter.. lol.. cc ish de last 2 came de cos he nid 2 work.. havin bbq.. eat.. drink.. play card games & maze catching.. lol.. til ard 3.30 lik dis den headed home.. cos 2dae mi n cc nid 2 work.. sian..
The 'cat king' Ah Hou..

Best Brothers.. Cc smile so happily wif him..

Mi & Cc.. smile so reluctanly.. -___-

Much beta.. bt stil nt tt good.. -__-"

Mi & Ah Hou.. De 1st pic we taken on tt nite

I am not stupid anymore..

Neva contact mi 4 2daes.. nt even a single msg.. i oso tod i can start 2 put himm down slowly le.. bt guess what.. he sent mi a msg 2dae.. at 1st i don feel lik replyin.. den he start 2 sent another msg.. dis ish de msg content btw us:

He: I knw u damn piss off of the photo... but u dun even ask me y i have it thre... n let ur imagination run wild..
Me: Ok. I let u explain. U giv mi an explaination.
He: Tt pic was taken 1 day by them...my big 1 took the phone n play which i left at hme cos i terminated the other line...so whn i brought the phone on fri to standby tis hp low batt...i oni change the sim card in the train b4 i mit u...n since thre is notg to hide frm u so i din change it bk
Me: Oh reli. Den why u seem 2 afraid wen i try 2 tak a look at yr phone. Why dint u explain on the spot wen i piss off?
He: I knw u will piss of whn u c it....whn i ask u wat happen u js keep sayin notg...wat u wan me to say...js take it tt im liein to u den..
Me: Since u noe i wil piss off why dint u chg yr pic in de 1st place den? Wat u r sayin ish contradictin. Pls la. Cock up wif beta excuses lei. I noe i blive ppl easily but not 2 dis extent la

Weneva he noe tt smth ish gg wrong btw us den he wil bcom so carin so good 2 mi.. treat mi jus lik a gem.. wen dere ish nth on wat he treat mi lik?.. rubbish.. pls la.. i hav had enuf.. i m tired n sick of everythin ald.. euu force mi de.. givin euu chance agn & agn.. euu don appreciate wat i hav done.. takin granted & upset mi further & further.. dono hw 2 cherish wen chance ish given euu.. dis ish wat euu deserve & serve euu rite.. i m glad tt i finally can c my direction agn.. no longer lik a headless chicken anymore.. i wil move on..

There is an end to everything...

Finally, everythin hav com 2 de end. No more doubts no more confusion. No more guessin game. i wil no longer b tired n upset by euu any longer. Now i noe why wat happen 2 caused euu 2 chg 2 nolonger hu i used 2 noe. Happy family indeed uh. Nice photo. She ish beri pretty. Cherish her. No nid lie 2 mi anymore. Thx 4 puttin effort 2 put up a show n dose lies. I hav enuf of everythin n i wil nt fal into it agn. Ish a nice ending. Last long wif her. euu hav my best wishings & blessings. Don try 2 act lik a saint in front of mi agn & no nid 2 pretend lik a victim act pity 2 seek my sympathy. i hav given euu enuf. don ask 4 more & don tak it 4 granted anymore. 1ce & 1ce agn. no more 2ce. I m die hearted here nw. no more chance 4 mi 2 revive agn. Now euu can FUCK OFF my life my world le. Euu dis BLOODY HELL BASTARD CUM JERK CUM ASSHOLE. KNN. CCB. GET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Meaningless...

Hmm.. hav a long weekend dis week.. bt stil nt enuf 4 mi.. my bro & family & chun comin out.. yeah.. gt 2 c my beloved niece.. 1 month onli gt 2 c her 1ce.. chun wil b comin out 2 look 4 a job n work.. he ish stayin in sg at my another cousin hse.. hav a few daes wif dem.. on fri mi hou n chun went 2 jp walk walk c c.. hav quite sum fun at dere wif dem.. at nite we went 2 party world at 399 sang fr 8-12.. de 3 of us damn high at dere de la.. lol.. sing n dance n drink lik nobidy business.. haha.. dint noe chun ish tt type of guy.. let mi c de another side of him.. i oways tod he ish dose quiet guy.. tt nite reli let mi drop my jaws.. nv judge its book by its cover uh.. haha.. sat ish a reli a good experience 4 mi of takin care a baby.. lol.. my bro n his wife went 2 slp bt my niece stil don 1 slp.. den my bro throw her 2 mi 2 tak care.. i carry her 2 my room let her crawl ard.. she ish beri clever de lo.. i place her on my bed she 1 2 com down she look on de ground use her hand 2 touch de ground c hw high ish de bed wen she noe de bed nt tt high she turn ard let her legs drop on de ground 1st den de body landed.. lol.. crawlin ard til ard 1 smth can she gettin tired le i carry her on de bed patted her on her butt 4 her 2 slp within 5 min she fal aslp le.. lol.. she slp in de middle of my bed la.. mine ish onli a single bed i gt nt enuf space 2 slp lo.. wen i 1 2 slp i push her 2 1 side so tt i can squeeze onto de bed.. lol.. den she toss here n dere.. so rough.. toss til i gt no space ald i hav 2 squeeze 2 a corner 2 slp.. den she stil 1 2 toss i reli no space ald.. den i don care her let her cant toss.. wen she cant toss she started 2 cry la.. wat 2 do.. i hav 2 let her toss den i slp side way.. den she toss agn.. omg.. i push her 2 1 side let her toss.. de whole nite ish lik dis lo.. til morn i wake up c hw she ish i found tt she slp vertcal ytd den morn i find her slp wif de head at my side n de leg at another side which mean she made a 90 degree turn.. -__-.. she woke up ard 7 smth 8 lik dis i noe she ish waken bt i don care her cos i stil 1 2 slp.. haha.. til 9 lik dis she cry agn den i noe she ish hungry le i woke up n prepare her milk 4 her.. after finish de milk i stil 1 2 slp den i oso try 2 coax her 2 slp oso.. bt she don 1 slp la.. i hav 2 keep awake 2 accompany her.. switch on de tv n watch cartoon wif her.. den her mum woke n carry her back.. dou ish quite tirin takin care of her bt i thin dis ish a nice experience 4 mi 4 1ce or twice.. nt daily!.. @_@.. she ish gg bac 2dae le.. gotta miss her lots.. wil b seein her 1 mth ltr.. humph..
thin everythin ish finally comin 2 de end ba.. dou it hurts alot bt short term ish beta den long term pain ba.. let time heals everythin.. time wil prove it..

Tired...

Hmmm.. guess what.. i m now at outside at beauty world centre bloggin nw.. at de 24hr irc here.. ppl come here play lan or wateva game de n i m here bloggin.. feelin kinda stupid la.. bt bo bian i gt nth 2 do.. ll, wz, qw, ly, hb, kelvin and louis at here playin cs & L4D.. i m nt tt type of gamin ppl la so i nv play.. end up surfin de net n bloggin here.. lol.. dey all sae beri fun bt somhw it jus don interest mi at all.. i thin i m de onli 1 com here n use com nt playin game nia.. haha.. cool uh.. dey keep say 1 teach mi play n sae i wil love it de.. bt i keep rejectin dey offer.. lol.. thx lots anw.. 2dae ish fri finally end of 1 week of sch le.. i m yr 2 nw.. seem so stress after wat dose teacher tel us abt wat we gg 2 do thru out de whole yr.. all de module i studyin nw ish so diff fr 1st yr la.. seem so chiminology n diff.. stressed uh.. jus de 1st week of yr 2 i ald feel so stressed le dono wat i gg 2 do 4 de rest of the yr sia.. gotta buck up n study harder le.. nt lik yr 1 idlin ard.. hope i can mak it 4 dis yr ba.. humph.. feelin so tired of everythin.. sch, family & esp euu tt mak mi feel so fucked n sick.. i reli dono wat 2 do wif euu.. somtime reli feel lik givin up bt jus cant put it down.. i m fallin so deep n hard tt i cant pick myself up.. any1 dere 2 lend mi a helpin hand.. guess no1 can help mi wif it except mi ba.. hais.. i thin ish time 4 mi 2 play my game le.. i onli interested 2 play viwawa nia.. lol..

Clueless..

Hmm.. i dono wat 2 do.. sld i giv up or conti lik dis.. i reali dono wat 2 do.. i hav tried n wanted 2 giv up a few times bt i realise i cant do it.. i tried beri hard le.. i don giv up i feel so sufferin feel so upset n disappointed.. if i giv up i feel so sufferin n upset 2.. my heart ish so pain.. feel so suffocated.. my mind ish full of him.. dou hu understand wat ish gg on sure wil feel tt i sld nt carry on cos of de reasons dey noe.. i noe i sld nt carry on de.. bt som hw my feelin keep makin mi carry on wif my mistakes.. i bcom so irrational.. wat ish so good abt him 2 mak mi feel so obsessed abt him?.. i don even noe myself.. i feel so messy.. feel so fucked up.. everytime i try 2 b hard n harsh on him by nt replyin his sms bt in de end everytime i replied him.. i couldn put my self down.. i oways tod i m a ppl hu can tak up n put down easy ppl bt i thin i m wrong.. i m nt as strong as i thin.. i m jus tt weak.. i thin i hav fal deeply le.. so hard.. pain til i dono myself.. can i trust euu?.. r euu a ppl 2 b trusted.. r euu lyin mi?.. i dono.. i tend 2 blive ppl easily in de end oways got deceive n fal n hurt myself.. i dono m i 2 sensitive or m i rite.. euu r oways tt suspicious.. everytime i ask euu euu oways com up wif good reasons.. ish dose lies or truth.. i reali dono.. onli euu noe yrself.. hope euu dui de qi yrself.. i thin i wil giv up de onli i nid time n hav de enuf determination n will den i wil b able 2 do so ba.. do euu reali treat mi wif yr heart or r euu jus tryin 2 play wif mi?.. do euu reali love mi wif yr heart seriously or r euu jus jokin wif mi.. urrgh.. i feel so fucked n fed up.. jus lik a headless chicken runnin ard.. i nid a direction.. dou he ish unfair 2 mi bt i stil choose dis path.. i deserve it n serve mi right 2 b lik dis.. i m jus a simple gal.. i don nid anythin.. i jus nid som or yt time ish tt so diff?.. i m so sick of waitin.. euu oways mak mi wait.. disappoin mi agn n agn.. upset mi agn n agn.. i stil chose 2 4giv euu.. i m jus tt stupid.. tt naive.. i m jus tt utterly disappointed.. tt utterly tired.. tt utterly sick.. disappointment sufferin n unhapiness ish tt so much more den happiness n laughter.. Do euu ever spare a tod fr mi.. i doubt so.. euu onli care 4 yrself.. thin 4 yr own.. euu nv care 4 my feelin at all.. euu onli 1 2 b hapi bt euu dono i m sacrificin my self 2 let euu b hapi n end up sadness 4 my own.. i feel lik i m nth bt jus a toy or puppet of yrs.. hapi n free den look mi up don nid mi den throw mi aside lik no body business.. hu m i de hell 2 euu?.. i m hurt times n times agn by euu bt times n times agn i stil fal 2 euu.. i wil c hw it goes.. conti 2 go ahead or i wil turn my back.. wait til i hav collapse n i wil surrender de game n everythin ish game over 4 us.. i wil giv up.. tt de end n full stop.. i wish 2 b de old mi sa tuo de guo sheng huo..

Fucked Up...

Hmm.. beri long nv update my blog le.. been beri busy wif my work n no time 4 blog.. anw no mood 2 blog oso.. feel so fucked up.. hmm.. sch startin tml le.. damn sian uh.. don feel lik gg sch.. i don lik sch life.. gt used 2 no sch le.. nw gg 2 re-adapt sch life agn le.. sian siaN siAN sIAN SIAN!!!.. gotta mis my life workin at jubilant le dou stil wil b gg back 2 work on tue n wed bt cant go work everydae.. gg mis dose beloved colleagues n boss.. thin dey gg 2 mis mi oso ba.. lol.. ytd went 4 sec sch gatherin at sentosa.. oso sian la.. bt ish a good 1 2 meet up wif old frene.. all look omost de same onli a few of dem seem 2 eat beta uh all bcom plumper.. den qi liang chg quite a lot i cant even recognise.. lol.. my laopo zhen quan bcom thinner le.. poor thin.. pls eat more n bcom fatter euu onli left bones nia i cant feel any flesh.. n go hav more tann euu r 2 white le.. ytd ard 20 plus ppl turn up 4 de gatherin ba.. de grp ish split into 3 grp.. mi yp jovell n pamela ish 1 grp cos we don 1 get tann so we stae in de shade de whole dae we did nth much onli playin card game.. dou we stae in de shade de whole dae bt mi n yp stil gt tann n we gt sunburnt.. wtf.. i hate sunburnt la n even hate 2 bcom dark.. ish beri es 4 mi 2 bcom dark bt ish beri diff 4 mi 2 bcom white.. urrgh.. i hate it.. ytd smth happenin happen.. dere ish dis uncle keep hangin ard our area.. we spotted him beri long ald.. he look so wierd n suspicious.. he keep lookin at us n keep lookin at de life guard.. at 1st mi n zq tod he ish gay jus 1 2 peep at guy.. we keep lookin at him.. den suddenly he pick 2 bags n leave beri fast.. dose bags were 2 japanese bags startin we tod ish his bag or wat den we feel kinda wierd n thin hw com uncle tak gal bag den wen he leave his look ish lik "i am a thief".. mi n zq stare at him takin de bag away we stunned la dono wat 2 do den let him gt away.. wth.. we so guilty sia.. den we kip lookin 4 de owner of dose bags den dey finally com bac n i told dem wat happen.. dey look so relax sia.. lik nth happen can even smile n laugh.. den after tt dey left n we took a few grp photo n mi n yp left le.. hmm.. my phone so fucked up sia.. i jus bought nt long den nw so many prob.. i oways tod nokia provide good brand phone.. bt i thin i m wrong sia.. i bought Nokia 5310.. jus ard 2 week dou drop 1 time bt so many prob ald.. last time no matter hw many time i drop nokia fone stil function so well.. bt nt dis time round.. de fone keep on hanged la.. keep auto shut.. de most funny n wierd thin ish de fone occur lik dis onli wen i type msg wen i type de word "lor" or wen i nid 2 type 5 6 & 7 tgt den it wil lik dis.. wtf.. hu can help n tel mi wat ish gg wrong why dis ish happenin?..

No More Night Out... No Drinking... No Smoking

Humph.. no more nite out 4 mi le.. gotta reach home wen sunset.. sadded la.. lik kena probation lik dis lor.. cos of wat?.. cos of my bad luck.. a few daes ago i dreamt abt myself pass away den hold funeral all sort of crap la.. my mama n him oso eyelid keep jumping 4 de whole dae.. kinda eerie uh.. den my mama n other frene sae nt good lei mus go ask dua di ah pek n c hw lor.. den wed i go 2 tt place agn.. haha.. as expected i c de handsom di ah pek.. i noe his name le.. he cal michael.. he ish a humorous guy lor.. gt 2 chat wif him tt dae.. he resemble my frene nicholas.. lol.. back 2 topic.. den i went 2 seek da ah pek.. he keep shakin his head lor.. he tel mi my luck ish bad dis month cos of qing ming festival.. i dreamt abt tt ish a beri bad dream den sae he wil help mi n lucky i cam in time.. he sae tt dose 'good bros' ish lookin 4 mi 1 2 harm n tak away my life lor.. he sae i wil b able 2 c dem agn dis month den ask mi i scare ma.. i sae i don scare la cos c until don 1 c ald ma.. den he sae den euu 1 2 c som more la.. den i lugh n sae don 1 la.. hee.. den he oso sae tt he help mi 2ce ald cant oways help mi.. ask mi bcareful.. don go out at nite if possible.. mus reach home wen sunset.. wth.. sian uh.. i onli go out at nite de lei.. den i oso ask abt my back ache prob cos it started 2 pain agn.. den he ask mi whether i gt drink ma.. i was lik.. eeer.. don dare 2 ans him la.. cos my mama dono i drink den she ish bside mi.. bt i stil admit in de end.. den he ask mi 1 quit drinkin.. hmm.. i sld b able 2 quit ba since i addicted nt long onli.. a few months ago i hav 2 drink 1ce a week bt recently i gt 2 drink everydae lei.. bt i stil manage 2 say 'no' wen ytd ppl offer mi 2 drink.. haha.. aizai sia.. den after tt he oso ask mi whether i gt smoke ma.. i more scare 2 ans him la.. i keep stammer.. actually 1 2 deny de.. bt i thin he noe le i stil admit in de end.. in my mind i was lik shit la.. die ald.. wtf.. mama sure wil hack mi la.. den he oso ask mi 2 quit oso.. humph.. no smoking.. no drinking.. no nite outing.. WTF!.. sen man guan uh.. i can minimise nite outin.. i can try nt 2 drink bt i cant quit smokin la.. so i stil conti smokin.. haha.. den after tt wen we on de way home.. as expected.. my mama reali niam mi.. ask mi wen i bcom lik dis.. cam 2 learn all dis.. my mama don lik ppl 2 drink de n don lik gals 2 smoke.. den i sae i onli occasionally onli la.. i wil stop de la=X.. den she sae tt actually she ald noe i gt smoke de cos wen i secretly smoke at home she can smel it.. bt she dint expose mi la.. heng uh.. reli unexpected lor.. my mama nv scold mi tt jia lat lik i thin.. *phew*..

我知道你很难过

我知道你很难过
爱一个人需要缘分
你何苦让自己越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真去碰触不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴的等
爱一个人别太认真
你受伤的眼神令人心痛
没有一个人非要另一个人
才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己面对伤痕
我知道你很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做 爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人今天说分说就分手
别问你的痛要怎么解脱
多情的人注定伤得比较久
爱若变成了刺
思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

Monitor Lizard!!!

Last fri we went 2 a hotel 4 lunch.. de hotel quite remote de.. de 1st dish mee goreng ish nice la bt de rest of de dishes i don lik lor.. in fact i feel yucky.. after lunch we decide 2 go 2 de hotel 2 visit.. cos we brought a guest fr phillipine wif us den we brg him 2 look ard.. wen we reach de lobby.. a gal hu work dere ran out fr her hostel n look 4 de boss in de lobby hu ish tokin 2 us n tel him tt dere ish a snake in de hostel.. de gals were slpin thus de gal ran out wif her pyjamas n pillow.. lol.. dere ish another 2 gals workin wen dey heard tt dey rush 2 deir hostel asap.. my GM the man oso went.. haha.. i oso beri curiour so i went wif my another manager.. at 1st i tod i m brave enuf so i went into de hostel.. de guys were lookin 4 de 'snake' in de room.. flippin de beds n clothes.. de 2 gals hu rush dere i tod dey were brave bt wen i go in i saw dem climbin onto de double storey bed.. -_-.. wth.. we haven see de 'snake' yt la.. lol.. all de gals in de hostel were on dey bed.. onli mi standin dere curiously lookin.. den suddenly smth ran out la.. i was lik wtf.. snake wher gt run so fast de sia.. den i realise ish nt snake la.. ish monitor lizard (aka si ka zhua).. dey sae eat ald ish beri good 4 de body.. pls la.. hu wil dare 2 eat it lor.. den wen i c it i jump up n pull my manager lor.. i m nt tt brave wat i thin..-_-".. i was frighten la.. 1st time c dis kind of thin den i ran out of de hostel.. i tod i m safe.. all de gals r outside.. den de thin ran out of de hostel lor.. all de gals jump n scream runnin in all directions lor.. dis same apply 2 mi=X.. 1st time i m lik dis.. so ps la.. after a hard battle wif de lizard dey finally caught it n put it in rubbish bag.. n my managers r suppose 2 tak it outside n put it in de forest as dey don 1 2 kil it.. wat a good deed uh.. bt i was frighten lik hel lor.. my gm tak de bag wif it inside n kip disturb mi lor.. i kip runnin away pullin my manager 2 save mi.. dis ish definitely more tirin den runnin 10km uh.. lol.. de lunch ald digested after de runnin la.. den we we drove n put it away.. i stil gotta stay in de car wif tt creature.. wth.. til nw thinkin abt it stil mak my hair stand lor.. tt whole dae my both legs r jelly la.. nv been so afraid b4.. urrgh.. den cam bac 2 de office my gm stil disturb mi abt tt creature.. kip di siao n tease mi.. humph..

anw.. tt dae i oso gt 2 c de guy i love most n de gal i love most in de past..
TCL: i hav nt seen euu 4 a long long time n i gt 2 c euu tt dae.. dono why it has been so many yrs.. gg 5 yrs.. i stil gt tt kind of wierd feelin 2ward euu.. hmm.. in de train i was lik keep glancin at euu.. no matter hw crowded de train ish no matter wher euu r i stil b able 2 spot yr presence.. euu stil b de gal i love most..

ps: fyi.. de monitor lizard ish ard 1 metre plus la.. imagine hw big it ish.. OMG..

Malaysia Trip..

on 05/04/09 went bac 2 msia reach dere ard 10.. den went 2 hav dinner den headed home 2 rest til nxt dae 12 noon slack at home de whole dae watchin vcds til ard night lik dis went 2 muar 2 hav dinner.. order lots of food de la.. 3 full tables.. wahaha.. after dinner went 2 my grandparent hse 2 discuss de nxt dae trip.. intended 2 go genting de cos i haven been gg 4 a beri long time since 11 yrs ago?.. den my bro n wife n cousins oso feel lik gg.. bt in de end cos of de expenses we drop off de idea.. cos 2 many ppl go le den sure beri ex.. thin wil put dis idea in the future if i gt 2 go bac msia holi agn.. humph..
on 07/04/09 wake up damn erly in de 6 smth lik dis 2 prepare 4 de trip 2 A' Farmosa.. ish a water world.. smth lik wild wild wet ba.. after preparin went 2 hav roti canai 4 breakfast den tok ard gg 2 hr lik dis 2 reach dere.. cos of police block n keep gg de wrong way.. lol.. reach dere ard 11.. went 2 play all sorts of exciting games.. i play all of de games ish damn shiok de la.. i m de onli 1 playin all de game de rest jus wait dere 4 mi seein mi play cos dey don dare 2 play.. lol.. let mi tel euu.. de attitude n service of de workers at A'Farmosa sucks 2 de core.. reli SUCKS!.. lucky dey r nt in sg if nt i sure complain uh.. wen playin dangerous games dere ish no 1 ard 2 tel euu wat 2 do even dere ish ppl dey don even bother euu.. euu tok 2 dem dey treat euu as if euu r transparent keep tokin 2 dem dey don look at euu or even response 2 euu.. WTF.. dono hire dem 4 wat la.. fucked up.. lucky i m fortunate enuf 2 survive thru de games.. i m sure dere mus b alot of incidents happen b4 at dere.. bside de fucked up workers.. another thin ish tt every games nid 2 climb a lot of stairs.. tired de la.. by de time climb up dere ald no mood 2 play ald lor.. nxt time sld ask dem 2 build escalator or lift.. since we pay so much 4 de entrance fee n cut down on de money 2 hire worker since dey r so useless.. after playin we went 2 meet my 2nd uncle at malacca.. he wil b de tourist of de day at malacca since he ish so familiar.. went 2 de ferris wheel place after tt went 2 hav dinner at pahlawan shoppin centre.. de service of de waitor at de restaurant oso sucks 2 de core la.. ask dem 4 cutlery dey don 1 giv euu mus ask many time den wil giv euu 1 set whereby we nid 3 sets.. WTF!.. dey cutlery lik made of gold lik dis.. den all of dem lik mute lik dis or dey mouth stick tgt wif glue la.. cant speak de sia.. ask dem thin wil nt reply n response de.. reli unhapi wif de service attitude at malaysia.. reli fucked up.. after tt walk ard in de shoppin centre n headed home..
on 08/04/09 wake up erly in de mornin agn 2 prepare 4 de trip.. had our breakfast n set off 2 our destination.. if i m nt wrong ish ard at jasin.. de main purpose of dis trip ish 4 my mama.. brg her 2 de hot mineral water pool.. cos mama health nt in de pink recently kip complainin here n dere pain.. den dey sae hot mineral water wil help blood circulate beta anw ish good 4 health.. went dere 2 play water agn swim n jacuzzi.. haha.. p.s: de water at A' Farmosa n de hot mineral water pool ish damn dirty de la.. SOOOO many dirt inside de pool lik nv clear n wash de.. went home n hav a nap after tt damn tired n slpy de la.. my bro n wife n niece n mi all slp at de same mattress.. haha.. cos 2 tired 2 go up de room den all collapse tgt n fal aslp.. lol.. wake up n hav our dinner.. in de night ard 11 plus lik dis went out 2 hav 'tea' wif my cousins.. hav a reli good chat wif dem tt dae.. reli wish 2 hav dis kind of chattin sessions often..
on 09/04/09 wake up erly in de mornin agn.. lol.. de dae b4 decided 2 wake up erly in de mornin 2 hav breakfast tgt wif my cousins.. after preparation went over 2 dey hse which ish jus nxt 2 my hse went dere n realise dey r stil slpin la.. dey mama went 2 wake dem up.. after dey wash up we went 2 de nearby food centre 2 hav our breakfast.. went 2 dey hse after tt 2 use com n watch movie.. fal aslp while watchin.. lol.. hav our dinner n home sweet home bac 2 sg..=)

What should i say?..

Hmm.. slacking again from job again.. lol.. de boss damn good de la.. no matter how slack he oso wil nt sae anythin de.. lol.. instead he stil treat mi beri good.. he often buy mi meals durin de lunch wen we r havin break.. somtime wen we work half way wen he ish outside he wil cal us out 4 a drink n ask us 2 stop workin ald.. haha.. damn shiok de la.. he ish a beri nice guy hu wil share wif his worker abt his life n feelin.. he treat us jus lik his frene.. he wil chat n joke ard wif us.. wen i nid 2 leave erly or tak leave he agreed immediately w/o hearin my reason.. wen i work at night n cant gt enuf slp n feel shag n tired in de mornin in de office he wil ask mi 2 go home n rest.. he wil oways try 2 find time out 4 mi 2 check if i m fine.. i feel so honoured 2 work 4 him.. i feel tt he ish de best boss i ever met.. i love workin wif him.. tt de reason why wen other companies offer mi wif a high salary of 3000 per month i rejected de offer dou my boss encourage mi 2 accept de offer since ish a good deal.. de general manager n sales manager ish oso beri good 2 mi and dey hav been takin beri good care 4 mi.. i m beri glad 2 work wif euu guys.. thx lots 4 all de care n concern.. i reli appreciate it..^^.. i feel tt i sld nt tak thin 4 granted.. i sld work hard n clinch as many deals as possible 4 him.. i sld repay dem good 4 dey kindness de.. if any1 gt any lobang pls introduce mi.. my company ish a human resources management hu help 2 look 4 foreign worker 4 de client.. we provide worker fr asia countries.. pls gt bac 2 mi if any 1 nid manpower.. thx=)

Yp: *phew.. finally receive yr msg.. euu suppose 2 reach dere by 8 ytd bt i haven receive yr msg since dis morn 12 smth.. i m so worry 4 euu de la.. dono wat happen 2 euu.. lucky i gt 2 receive yr reply after i sent euu de msg.. feel more relieve.. omost go 2 de police wen i haven gt yr msg lorx.. haha.. lol.. hope euu enjoy dere.. tak lots care.. mis euu babe..

p.s: i will be gg bac 2 msia tml 4 holi 2 enjoy myself.. woohoo.. will be bac by nxt mon night.. wil nt b bloggin dis few daes.. i wil blog wat ish gg on in msia wen i com bac.. haha.. lol.. hope 2 post pic in my blog 2.. yeah^^

Pervert...

After i reach home fr town wif yp.. den i went 2 s11 2 meet ly n hb.. mi n ly sit at 1 table drinkin n chattin.. while hb n his grp of frene sat at another table eatin.. den came dis uncle keep starin at us.. at 1st we don giv a damn 2 him lorx.. den ly went 2 buy pancake he saw de uncle at dere n he kept smile cunningly at my frene la.. ly felt beri wierd n leave asap after orderin de food.. bt hu noe de uncle saw dere ish an empty table in front of us n he tak a seat in front of us.. wtf la.. stil ok.. de prob ish tt pervertic uncle keep starin at us in a beri wierd n cunning way la.. mi n ly start 2 get beri sio ald.. stil bearin wif it.. den he ate finish his food wantin 2 throw de plate away bt i thin de main purpose ish he try 2 gt close 2 mi n ly.. he walked beri close n pass by mi.. lucky ly pull mi away if nt i dono wat he tryin 2 do.. after he walked pass mi he oso try 2 do de same 2 ly.. i sio dao mm jia lan la.. den i started 2 shout loudly at him.. made him lose his face in de public.. below ish de conversation btw mi n him(translate 2 eng):
Me: uncle, wat euu lookin at?
Me: why euu kip lookin at us?
Uncle: no la, i nv look at anythin. i nv look at euu.
Me: nv look at us den why kip lookin at our direction.
Uncle: nth la. (tryin 2 make up excuses 2 cover his ass, while stil kip lookin at us.)
Me: stil look!
den after tt hb n his frene walk over 2 our table n hb sit wif us den mi n him kip lookin at him.. ly kip tryin 2 peace mi.. lucky she peace mi if nt i wil shout at him more n i ald feel lik givin him a beatin ald.. tryin 2 tak de bucket n throw at him.. hb oso feel lik beatin him up.. den de uncle don dare 2 look at us ald.. den he tak out his fone tryin 2 cal.. bt wat funny ish he tak out his fone n press 1 button n can gt thru ald.. no nid dial de sia.. lol.. den he kip sayin wat he gt frene kena beaten 2 death or wat.. i thin he ish tryin 2 scare us off.. fucked him up la.. dare he com beat mi or wat la.. ask him cal ppl com down beat mi la.. i nt scare of him lorx.. dare him nia.. he ish onli jus a hump ji kia.. de tables ard us de ppl kip lookin at us lorx.. sure giv him lose face til gao gao uh.. spoil my mood 2 eat ald.. we left after awhile since ly nid 2 pack food 4 her bro.. den went 2 ly hse downstair n slack awhile b4 go home..

HAPPY SWEET 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!

2dae ish yee ping 18th bdae.. jus wanna hope she wil live 2 de best 4 de followin daes.. ytd went 2 town wif her n hav shokudo?.. if i nt wrong.. ish japanese pasta n pizza at cine.. de 1st time we eat ish another branch fr city hall.. ish damn nice de la den we oways keep cravin 4 de food n we went 2 cine 2 hav it.. lol.. after eatin we walk ard in cine cos of de big n heavy rain.. after de rain had stop we went 2 far east n walk.. den we pass by a shop n i found smth 2 buy 4 her since ish her bdae n i haven gt anythin 4 her yt.. ps. after i gt de new job i haven gt de time 2 gt euu present.. i saw couple cups n i find it quite interestin.. i try 2 drag yp 2 go away so tt i can gt de stuff bt she jus don 1 lorx.. so stubborn.. in de end we go 2 de shopp n buy tgt.. ish nt surprisin at all lorx.. bt at least she can choose de 1 tt she lik.. dou de present ish nt tt good or pricey bt i hope euu lik it.. ish jus a tod fr mi.. she oso sae tt why her bdae her bf oso gt 2 hav present.. lol.. aiyo.. yr thin ish oso his thin ma.. don so calculative.. haha.. den we gt 2 hav a sit n drink.. den we spot 2 small boy thin ish stil at primary sch.. mi n yp dint expect tt at such a young stage ald so 'hao se'.. dey sit on de ground n keep starin at gals esp dose hu wear skirt n "upskirtin".. >.<.. we oso gt tak a few pic at cine toilet.. haha.. cos yp sae why my blog so plain onli words nia.. so i tel her i 1 tak pic wif her n post in my blog.. lol..




Do we look lik nv wear anythin on?.. haha

I lik dis pic.. de image color ish nice=)

We do hav smth on de.. =P The ladies in white^-^

Tired..

woohoo~.. beri rare of mi 2 blog so erly ba.. thin nv blog so erly b4 oso lorx.. lol.. nw at office usin my lappy n surf net n blog.. haha.. my work beri slack horx.. lol.. humphx.. damn tired de la.. dis few daes onli slp less den 10 hr nia.. ltr finish dis work stil gotta ruh down 2 maple 2 work agn til 12.. can i reli handle n cope?.. i started 2 doubt myself ald.. gotta gt bac 2 my work agn le.. jiayou ba.. all de best 2 mi.. hope i wont collapse cos of tiredness=(

workaholic

Humphx.. 2dae ish my 1st dae started 2 work at dis company cal jubilant resources management pte ltd.. de purpose of de company ish 2 help client 2 recruit foreign manpower fr other countries lik china india bangladesh myanmar phillipines & malaysia based on de criteria stated by de client.. my purpose of my job ish 2 cal companies n ask if dey nid any worker.. ish aka as telemarketer lorx.. ish my 1st time workin as dis la.. den i damn paiseh 2 cal companies.. jus feel kinda awkward la.. cos i nt reli used 2 speak eng som more ish proper eng lorx.. i speak de eng either ish broken de or ish singlish.. humphx.. gotta improve.. lol.. i m de youngest n de onli gal in de company sia.. feel beri paiseh la.. bt dey treat mi beri good n reli tak beri good care of mi.. reli grateful n thx dem lots.. hope i wont create trouble 4 dem ba.. lol.. wz keep ask mi why i oways find de job so good de.. den i tel him ish nt i go find de job de ish de job com n find mi de.. lol.. de boss n managers com my pub 4 drink on tue den dey approach mi n ask mi whether i 1 2 work 4 dem ma.. startin i tod dey r jus kiddin wif mi la.. cos dey don look serious at all-_-.. bt in de end i stil go 2 deir company 2 dae n edy r serious in recruitin mi n i gt 2 start work 2dae.. haha.. currently i m holdin 2 2 jobs nw.. so i feel tt i sure wil b dead tired de.. lucky i stil gt 2 rest on sun.. lol.. *phew*.. tml gotta wake up erly 2 work 4 jubilant after work gotta rush down 2 pub 2 work agn til 12.. humphx.. shag..

My Dearest Babe: sori gal prom euu tt i wil help euu out on fri 4 de chalet thin de bt i nw gt 2 work bt i wil try 2 leave asap 2 help euu de.. i nv don hav put in my heart la.. euu wil oways b dere in my heart de.. no 1 wil replace euu de.. lol.. euu r oways loved by mi.. I LOVE YOU.. muacks<3

WZ: no nid worry abt mi.. i can tak it de.. we all can stil meet up at weekend night lik we all used 2 b last time.. no worry i wil tak out som time 2 join euu guys & my babe even i gt work de..=)

Him: yeah.. gt 2 c my di ah pek 2dae cos ish wed n chu yi.. my mum ask mi 2 go wif her 2 pray n ask thin.. he ish til tt good lookin n cool n manly dou he had cut his hair.. haha.. i m jus lik a flower idiot.. lol

WTF!!!

WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF my lappy kena problems sia!!!.. dono wat wrong wif my lappy.. SHUCKS!!!.. thin kena viruses or wateva fucked up prob la.. si bei bek cek la.. jus sayin tt i m quite heng awhile ago n smth si bei suay n fucked up prob happen 2 mi.. UURGH!!!.. thin nid 2 go 2 acer 2 fix my com agn.. AARGH!!!.. ish troublesom de la.. why m i so suay!!!.. tod after i hav increase my luck thin wil go beta n smoother 4 mi.. i don suppose so nw.. haiis.. bt ish oso cos i bein a VERY VERY boondeh & VERY VERY stupid & VERY VERY dumb de mi 2 caused wat hav happen 2 my lappy.. go n open a unverified website den kena all dis problems.. WHY AM I SO STUPID!!!.. cant stand myself at times.. dou even noe tt cant b open stil go open.. Humphx.. BWG.. HELP ME!!!...=(

EXAMS OVER!!!

dono 2dae ish hang or suay.. 2dae paper start at 4 bt i reach sch at 4.25.. late 4 25 min!!!.. wth.. i tod 2dae paper start at 4.30 tt why reach sch late.. i went 2 de hall n i c ppl ald started paper n wat shocked mi ish tt i c de notice board it sae start at 4!!!.. i tod i went 2 de wrong hall sia wanted 2 leave bt den i saw my kls mate den it cant b wrong la.. n naive de mi stil tod tt prob de paper start erly-_-.. i m so gan chiong de la.. til de end of de paper den my frene tel mi ish tt de paper start at 4 i stil c de time table twice n i stil can c wrong?!.. shoot bird mi.. bt lucky i stil manage 2 finish de paper by 5.25 den look thru n check de paper til de end of exam.. phew*.. btw i m stil nt de last ppl 2 enter de exam hal stil gt 1 more ppl ltr den mi 2 reach by 3 min?.. thin de ppl oso mayb c wrong timin tod start at 4.30.. haha.. lucky i stil manage 2 reach b4 4.30 if nt i thin i may hav 2 retak de module le.. cos 30 min after de paper candidate cant enter de hal 2 tak paper le.. god bless mi uh.. yeah.. exam finally over n ish holi!!!.. gg find another job 2 earn as much money as possible.. gt ppl wif any lobang pls let mi noe.. thx lots..



Reality: After the death of azumi i realise how vulnerable life can be. jus within a few daes n so many thin hav chg.. dis ish de cruelty of reality.. euu cant do anythin bt 2 accept de fact n face it.. b4 de incident i oways tak everythin 4 granted but after dis incident i realise tt i mus reli cherish n treasure de loved ones ard mi.. cos i mite nt noe hu wil leave mi de nxt moment or mi leavin de world.. do not live yr life wif regret learn 2 appreciate de moments i hav wif my beloved ones.. i m reli scare.. reli scare tt som 1 i noe wil leave mi agn.. may god bless de ones ard mi..

Information: after de accident abt azumi i learnt abt de whole accident tt tk place on de newspaper.. he was ridin on de bike wif another ppl on de way 2 work.. den suddenly bump into a van den both of dem flew off wif great impact.. azumi stil gt ran over by a lorry wen he flew off n landed on de ground.. wat a miserably tragedy 2 happen.. why he doesn drive his car tt dae n tragedy nite nt happen.. haiis.. i thin i hav phobia of ridin bike nw after learnin abt de accident..

Rest In Peace..

2dae wen 2 bugis 1 of de stamboat restaurant cal golden chopsticks 4 steamboat wif derek, hb, ly, ll, qw, & kelvin.. dint reli eat tt much cos wen i m in de midst of eatin i receive a msg n spoil my mood 4 eatin.. my boss sent mi a msg n sae tt azumi his buddy hu ish oso my frene had passed away durin an accident.. i was beri stunned n shocked de la.. 3 daes ago he jus gave mi a cal nia lorx.. n he sae tt he wil ask mi out after my exam on mon.. n 2dae wat i heard ish tt he passed away.. wtf.. ish lik de feelin i m feelin nw ish beri un describable lorx.. bt i manage nt 2 put him at heart n able 2 enjoy myself by nt thinkin of him.. after de steamboat went 2 esplanade drank n play card wif dem.. i drank ard 3 bottles of alcohol wif onli 5% nia n i m a bit tipsy bt nt drunk yt so jialat lik last time.. after drinkin headed home by night bus.. dono why.. my mind ish full of euu now.. euu left a deep impression in mi.. dou we onli met 1ce n onli contac on fone wif less den 5 times bt i stil keep reminiscin abt de past wen we met n hw we gt 2 noe each other.. mayb cos of yr posh gtr & lotus?.. mayb cos of yr fun lovin char?.. bt i thin tt de main reason mayb ish jus 2 abruptly 2 let mi noe de fact tt euu had pass away?.. i dono.. i onli noe tt i wil nt gt 2 c euu agn.. nomore agn..

ll: i noe euu same as mi ish direction idiot la.. bt nt so jialat 2 dono hw 2 differentiate somerset n suntec city lorx.. lol.. ish totally diff la.. haha..

euu noe hu euu r: euu n yr crap.. i hav had ENUF!.. fuck off 1 corner la.. i ald noe erly tt i sldnt blive euu n i noe i did nt fall 4 yr trap either.. haha.. i m nt tt stupid n dumb or naive ald.. euu can go fuck n fool ard wif other gal bt nt mi.. i m nt good 2 b trifle.. so pls leave n stae away fr mi.. euu BLOODY HELL BASTARD CUM IDIOT CUM JERK CUM BIG LIAR..

Azumi: may euu rest in peace in de nether world.. euu wil oways remembered by mi.. sori 4 nt seein euu 1 last time.. may god bless euu.. bye bye..

HaPpY VaLeNt!nE DaY

Yea.. gg 2 post abt valentine day.. dis ish my 18th yr celebratin valentine day w/o valentine.. lol.. bt dis yr valentine nt bad la.. quite hapi bt oso quite sian de.. On valentine day wake up n go 2 my last time visitin place durin sec sch place--- study corner.. -_-.. went dere 2 study wif ly a while b4 gg out n hav fun.. dint reli study much dou.. Humph.. wz came soon n pass mi de a rose wrap wif 2 bears.. thx lots uh.. i lik it=).. den met hb.. he c arry a lot of stuffs lorx.. 2 BIG red plastic bag n 1 small paper bag.. i tod dose r 4 ly bt in de end 1 of de BIGGER BIG red bag ish 4 mi de.. OMG.. beri surprisin indeed.. inside de bag gt 1 BIG bouquet of sunflower which my bro n his wife sae tt ish 4 funeral de-_-.. bt i stil lik it anw=P.. dis bouquet ish fr derek.. don expect him 2 giv mi.. thin mus b hb kip psycho him de lorx=X.. inside stil gt 1 more bouquet of lovely pink roses fr ly n hb.. tt de bouquet i love de most dou it stinks a bit.. oops.. thx lots guys 4 givin mi flowers.. i love euu 2 la.. haha.. after tt tak cab down 2 jurong hil.. damn lots ppl de la.. all couple or family.. i thin tt mi n wz feel so extra cos we r de onli single 1.. play gooseberry btw ly n hb-_-.. sori uh.. ruin euu 2 de 1st valentine.. =(.. hb ish de cook 4 de dae.. cos he specially learn 2 cook ly fav 'mac & cheese' 4 her n he dint 4gt abt mi n wz n he cook 4 us 2.. haha.. thx bro=).. i dint eat de whole dae la jus 2 wait 4 his "cuisine".. lol.. dou ish de same thin bt mi n wz feel tt ly de bowl look n taste beta den ours den we keep complainin.. den dey 1 2 chg wif us bt we reject lorx.. bt dey taste ours dey sae ours nicer.. dono ish true or ntO.o?.. tt dae i hav been a beri good gal cos i nv drink tt dae.. onli wz n ly drink.. dono wat wrong wif him kip on drinkin n smokin den in de end drunk n suffer.. hmm.. after tt play card games b4 go home.. sian de lorx..

This is the bouquet by derek

This is the bouquet by ly and hb
This is the bouwuet by wz

Quote of the day:

Ly: 2dae valentine dae cab wil charge $2 more horx?

Me: ??? (blurrO.o)

Ly: valentine dae is public holidae horx?

Me:...-_-"

2dae went 2 pray de dua di ah pek.. damn scary de la.. 1st time go som more ask 2.. my thin quite complicated de ba tt why nid 2 god 2 help mi.. lol.. de white 1 which ish de bigger status 1 keep shakin his head lorx.. den ask mi go ask de 2nd 1 which ish de black 1hw 2 settle my prob.. he sae my luck ish beri low lorx.. which ish true.. he sae tt even if i settle tt dae de thin stil wil hav others 2 com find mi 4 trouble de.. he sae he wil help mi 2 increase my luck n he oso suggest mi 2 chg my appearance lorx.. he sae no dark dark make up 4 mi=(.. no dark clothin oso.. he sae try 2 wear orange n red n yellow.. i don hav all dis color de clothin la.. gonna replenish my wardobe agn?.. lol.. de most funny thin ish tt he ask mi 2 dye red 4 my hair.. lol.. he gt sense of humour uh.. he oso ask mi nt 2 drink 2 much wil brg my luck lower.. he oso persuade mi 2 chg my job if possible.. maybO.o?.. actually dey sae de 2nd ah pek ish beri fierce bt i don thin so lorx.. lol.. cos i feel tt he quite frenely de.. treat mi quite nice.. he even offer mi 2 drink his beer lorx.. n de most funny part ish tt he sae: i ask euu drink 1 mouth horx.. nt 1 whole bowl uh.. =P.. n i drank a small mouth la.. de most scary part ish tt he use de knife 2 cut his tongue lorx den gt a lot of blood streamin down.. den he use de blooded tongue 2 lick de joss paper n ask mi burnt it den lick a piece of red cloth n ask mi 2 wear it.. if euu c mi wear on my right wrist n tt ish it.. thru out de whole process it took ard 1 hr plus ba.. n de ah pek onli serve mi 1 ppl nia.. lol.. he sae tt gt any prob or doubts can com ask him agn nxt wed.. dere de ppl oso help mi quite alot.. cos i m a noob at dere la.. dono anythin den nid dey help.. thx lots.. 4 gt 2 thx dem at dere-_-..

p.s: btw de guy hu possessed ah pek 1 ish a good lookin guy sia.. quite young oso.. sld b ard 20+?.. lol.. mayb sld go gt number fr him.. haha.. =P

Haiix.. dint go 4 de math tut 2dae.. nt feelin wel.. havin terrible headache.. feelin feverish.. ish dis de consequences or side effect of wat happen tt dae?.. idk.. euu may sae i m superstitious bt i do blive in it cos i hav lots of experience n i noe dis ish nt i thin 2 much.. 2dae reli grateful 2 sh n linda hu help mi tak de notes.. n sh helpin mi 2 do elective selection.. thx lots gals.. thumbs up=).. went 2 jp 2 meet linda n kenderick 2 gt de notes.. after tt rush bac 2 taman 2 gt smth n my dinner.. den rush down 2 work.. b4 i start my work i pray n burn joss paper 4 'dem' which i promised tt dae n i mus returned wat i promised.. wen i start 2 pray den it suddenly rain out of nowhere-_-.. wth.. gt in de rain n conti prayin cant stop halfway ba.. lol.. finally pray finish le.. feel much beta bt stil a bit of uneasiness.. anw.. tml gg 2 pray 'ah pek' 2 mak myself feel more easy.. i m beri afraid of it la.. lucky hb ish gg 2 pei mi.. lol.. 2dae work time flies quite fast ba.. n oso de cashier dint giv mi attitude 2dae n treat mi quite wel?O.o.. dono wat wrong wif her lorx.. hapi jiu treat mi wel nt hapi treat mi lik shit.. Errgh.. hope she wil b hapi all de while wen i m workin ba..-_-.. wil mak my life easier..

Something wrong..

I can feel dere ish smth wrong wif mi.. i am nt sure abt it.. i cant cnf.. bt i feel wierd.. i cant sae it out cos i noe smth wil happen.. so i choose 2 let it remain as a secret.. onli i noe ba.. don ask mi abt it cos i don feel lik sayin it.. am i reli wat i am?.. i hope nt.. i don thin i can accept it neither do any1 around mi..

2dae went 2 jp 2 look 4 hb n ly.. went over ish ald 10 plus.. ish lik all de shops r closin ald.. i met dem at swensen 4 dinner.. n we hav 2 finished it by 10.30.. cos de ppl dere kept lik chasin us off la.. wth.. den after tt i suggest 2 go kbox 2 sing cos i sudden gt de urge.. haha.. den we oso cal cj dey all since cj hav been wantin 2 go so much.. lol.. we argued abt it 2 whether go cine or clementi.. dey sae cine wil b beta since dere can sing til 6 bt clementi onli 3 bt de price ish de same.. bt i can onli sing til mus reach home by 4.30 wen my mum wake-_-.. den de ly n hb wil oso leave by tt time.. den we find it not worth since we nt singin til 6 n if we took cab fr cine wil b quite ex compared 2 clementi.. in de end we went 2 de clementi.. de 3 of us reach dere 1st n i start 2 sing.. since ly n hb don sing.. -_-.. lol.. den cl.. cj.. db n wh join in ltr.. ish lik wtf la.. wen dey came in db n cl giv us lj face.. ly beri sen n affected her.. c her lik dis i oso nt hapi.. den i went 2 de smokin room n puay wif dem lorx.. db beri buay song wif mi n i argue wif him la.. bt after in de end we settled.. he seem 2 b beta after tt.. bt abt cl he seem 2 b beri sen lorx thru out.. de same goes 2 hb oso.. den we celeb wh bdae.. i try 2 play bdae song bt i keep play de wrong 1 la.. cos gt so many type of bdae song.. wth.. nxt time hav 1 bdae song in de system can ald la.. i thin i sld go tel de kbox management.. lol.. after sang finish wh blew de candles w/o makin wish cos he sae tt he gt no wish-_-.. den cl try 2 smash de cak on his face bt dint succeed cos he push away bt i stil manage 2 smash him som cak.. smashin cak session over.. we continue our singin session.. ly n hb tok thru out dere n hb saw my last time photo thru ly fone.. WTF.. he kept askin mi whther dis ish mi ma.. lol.. n wh dere sen at 1 corner msgin or wat.. lol.. he ish a beri quiet guy.. dou ish nt a beri good dae of singin bt stil passable la cos i noe wat ish actually gg on.. n we headed home by cab wif hb n ly.. thx hb 4 sendin us home agn.. lol.. home sweet home n i m here bloggin..

Ytd i went 2 work.. ish a sucking dae la.. dono wat wrong wif tt stupid cashier.. keep findin fault wif mi.. tok 2 her don 1 2 hil mi.. fuck her la.. try 2 tok 2 her nicely giv mi attitude.. wtf.. 4gt abt her.. ly.. hb.. cl.. wh.. db.. cj.. wz.. ll & qw went 2 look 4 mi at de pub 2 drink.. after work i oso went 2 look 4 dem 2 drink.. it ish a beri happenin dae.. many thin cocked up.. cl went drunk n start 2 throw temper at every1.. every1 went 2 pacify him bt he chase dem away.. ly oso seem 2 b a bit tipsy.. i drank onli 3/4 jug de tiger n i gt drunk.. mayb cos i m 2 upset over many thin den i drunk easier ba-_-.. i went 2 a corner n sen alone n vomitted den wz n ll came look 4 mi i dono why i shout at dem n ask dem 2 go away i thin i shout at de rest hu came oso.. sori.. den after tt dono why suddenly i cant breathe properly n start 2 asthma?.. i dono.. cos i don thin i hav asthma history bt wen i gt agitated i wil lik dis.. i seem 2 b out of breathe la.. keep tryin 2 catch my breathe hardly.. de rest all came 2 mi n beri worry 4 mi tryin 2 help mi out.. ll n wz keep tellin mi wat 2 do.. in medic course 1 ish gt experience de lorx.. lol.. i m beri glad tt dey r dere if nt i sure die.. haha.. my limbs, mouth n tongue i tHin de whole body la start 2 numb n cant feel anythin.. it numbs till bcame beri cold la tt i kept shiverin.. den de rest help mi 2 massage tryin 2 mak my blood flow n warmth it.. it took beri long bt stil de same den dey beri gan chiong n 1 2 sent mi de hospital or clinic.. dey even 1 2 cal 4 ambulance.. wth.. bt i stop dem la.. cos i reli don 1 2 go.. dey c i so stubborn tryin 2 carry mi 2 de taxi den i shout at dem n tel dem tt if dey 1 mi 2 go i wil die 4 dem 2 c-_-.. den ll n qw even ran 2 bukit gombak or wat tryin 2 look 4 nearest clinic.. thx 4 de effort guy.. den i dono actually wat happen cos i seem 2 b sub concious after som time i seem 2 b beta.. den nette dono why shout at mi n i shouted n try my temper.. sori i don mean it.. den i started cryin 4 som time.. i feel beri frustrated n stress.. den i went 2 de pub dere n sit.. wz.. ll.. qw n hb ish dere.. den after som time i dono why i start shiverin n start 2 breathe hardly agn.. asthma came agn?.. wz n ll came 2 my help agn.. haha.. den i dono why suddenly i seem tt somthin possessed in mi wen ll tak amulet or wat i seem 2 b beri afraid of it.. i shouted n pushed dem away wen dey tryin 2 force 2 put dose thin on mi..den i dono wat happen next actually.. mayb wz n de rest mite noe.. i able 2 ask 'dem' go away wen i kneel n beg dem 2 leave mi alone n wil offer dem incense n joss paper n we wil nt disturb dem agn.. i thin de reason why i lik dis ish cos my luck hav been beri low n we disturb dem greatly at de 1st place.. n dey were beri insatisfied wif us.. den after wen i m awake after de thin left i feel my whole body beri weak n nua.. n we flat cab n left.. by de time ish ald mornin 6.15 if i nt wrong.. tt dae ish damn scary de la.. i bet my frenes hu a dere sure kena shocked by mi lorx.. til nw i m stil frightenin.. i stil gt 2 go work on tue.. wth..

p.s: sori 2 dose guys hu i actually throw my temper n affected euu all.. i noe i sldnt do tt cos euu all don deserve so.. bt i reli don mean it.. sori 4 my bahaviour n attitude.. n thx a million lots 4 helpin mi wen i in nid of help.. euu guys great 2 de core.. i m beri glad 2 hav euu all.. everytime wen i m drunk euu all wil b dere 4 mi.. sori 4 creatin lots n lots of trouble.. i thin i wil nt b drinkin 4 sum time n even i drink i wil nt drink at dere agn..

Today went to school for java and dcn lecture for the exams. Stay awake for the first lecture but starting to feel tired around 45 min later.. Lol.. After the java lecture is the next semester elective briefing.. Humphx.. Headache uh.. Dono what to choose sia.. VB.Net, C++ or C#?.. Lol.. Any idea for me?.. Stil pondering over it.. Hope to come up with a decision soon.. After that is the dcn lecture.. Guess what?.. Yep.. I fall asleep through out.. Lol.. By the time i wake up is coming to the end of the lecture. After the lecture rush down to the pub for work.. Dono why.. today working time like pass damn slow de lorx.. so sianx.. so tired.. Humphx..

Girl: Seeing you suffering and miserable i really feel upset and useless.. I cant help you much cos this is between you and the other two i really cant interfere.. All i can do is to give you advice and cheer you up.. but it seem that neither of them really helps you.. i really dono what to do.. sorry for not being there when you need me.. i really hope you can get out of it and solve your problems asap.. cos i really wish to see the old you.. i don like now de you.. i will alwyas be here for you no matter what.. hearing you that you are falling sick.. i feel heart pain for you.. you must be too stressful till fall sick de ba.. hope you don think too much n recover n get well soon.. take lots care.. don made me worry for you.. you are always loved by me!=)

My 1st Blog Entry

Hello... This is my first blog entry... i feel that i am just like a shua gu lorx... Never done a blog b4 exploring here and there trying to create one... Do for quite awhile and *ta dah* here is my blog... When many people ask me whether i have blog not my answer is always a 'NO'... My friends will say me that whether i am living in this era... i don have blog... don have tagged and don have facebook... wth... i know i am not 'IN' la... but at least i still got friendster... yeah... -_-"... So this is the start of my blog... hope i will continue my blog and not stop halfway ba... lol... Sign off... Bye*